It's unfortunate. I'm a rebel.
In my actions. In my thoughts. In what I don't do.
I'm a rebel by nature. Sin nature.
It's not a choice I make- to be this rebellious. It's a choice when I choose NOT to rebel. And that's when it becomes cool that this nature in me, is who I am. In NOT rebelling, I am, in a sense, REBELLING. Against my nature.
Satan likes to kick up these STUPID thoughts in my head. I can choose to consider my thoughts; or I can choose to move them away. The latter is the HARDEST, but well worth the effort. Well. Worth. It.
I could become a total idiot if I allow my thoughts to be considered. I could become even dumber if I act on those thoughts. I can't lie. I have done both. Considered. And Acted.
I struggle, periodically, with a specific thought. The thought that, if considered, could get me in big-huge trouble. This specific thought has been the hardest to push aside. Worldly, it'd be fun. It'd be interesting. Spiritually- it would DEVASTATE me.
I'm so thankful that God has made it black and white for me. It's my choice- to consider and/or to act. It's totally up to me. But being aware of the repercussions is worth more than gold. I choose NOT to act. More so, I choose NOT to consider.
Totally. Worth. It!
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