Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Draft from Aug 2, 2005

I discovered this in my "Drafts" from our email address.  WHOA!!  4 + years ago, an email I never sent out.  Very cool.  I'm glad to have found it.  Zoe can now look back at a tidbit of information about what was going on with 'Mommy' before she was born.

Hello Everyone.

Well, today (Tuesday Aug 2) marks my due date.  No baby.  At my appointment this afternoon, my midwife told me that I was not progressing towards labor.  My cervix has not started to thin, and the babies head is very high up.  I haven't dialated at all, and they don't anticipate me going into labor on my own. 

Since I had a C-Section with Kyla due to being induced and not progressing, I have scheduled a second C-Section for this Friday, Aug 5 at 2:00 pm.  I had been praying that I could have a natural delivery this time around, and that may still happen between now and Friday.  But, for my peace of mind, I went ahead and scheduled the C-section.  My blood pressure is getting way too high, and I am swelling up bigger and bigger.  I've gained too much weight in a short period of time, and that isn't good either (for my health or my complex).

We STILL haven't settled on a name.  PRAY FOR US@!!!!!!!!!!  Joshua won't settle on a name.  Since we found out we were pregnant, we had been keeping and index card with names on it.  The "boy" card is filed away, but the girl card is laying here with several choices.  They are:

Zoe :  (life; life of God) 
Bethany:  (life)            
Naomi:  (delightful; pleasant;) 
Elysia:  (God's oath) 
Ariella:  (lion of God) 
Eliora:  (my God is light) 
Gabriella:  (Hero of God)
Jael:  (prominent) 
Lael:  (of God)  
Zemira:  (joyous melody; song of praise
Keely:  (grace)

These are names that either Joshua, myself, or perhaps both of us have liked at one point or another through out thepregnancy.  Through all of those names, you'd think we'd come to some conclusion, but..... NO.  Some of the names on the list will be concidered for middle name only (Joshua's pick is Jael and my pick is Zoe for a first name)  I really like Zemira.  It's so pretty, but I'm not sure that we'll choose it. 

Thursday, November 5, 2009

I want.....

I want my husband to live in his 'sweet spot'.  I want him to have a career that will enable him to use his talents, a career that will challenge him in a way that will inspire him.  I want my husband to go to work, and offer his skills and his natural abilities, and come home satisfied in what he's doing.

I don't want him TO HAVE to work at a place that drains him.  I know.  I know.  Most people that have a career aren't in a career that they truly love.  I don't expect him to wake up in the morning saying "YIpEE.... I get to go to work!"  I just want him to have something to look forward to.  Something that will bring him a reward other than a paycheck at the end of his day or week.

Currently-  my oh-so! talented husband is a roofer.  It sounds so simplistic.  But- it's not.  He's an extremely AWESOME roofer- he's an irreplacable asset to his dad's company.  Honestly- I've no idea what his dad would do with out Joshua.  Not only is my husband a skilled laborer- he's naturally inclined to look at a problem (mechanically) and figure it out- SUCCESSFULLY!  I don't think there's been a time that he has been faced with a mechanical malfunction that he's not been successful at fixing it.

You name it!!!  He's like that guy from "Slingblade".  He can fix it.  He can figure it out.  He can work it out.  It matters NOT what it is.  If it won't power up- he'll MAKE it power up.  PERIOD!  I sound biased????!!!! Well- look- I'm not.  It's just the plain ol' matter-of-fact TRUTH.

So?  His current job.  Roofing.... eh... he can do it- and do it WELL.  It just doesn't challenge him.  He likes the process of 'rebuilding' and 'reworking' but not the process of driving 4 hours a day in Atlanta traffic, and having to wake up at 4:30 in the morning, and not coming home to rest until after 5 or 6:00 in the evening.  He's exhausted.  He's drained.  He's not in his sweet spot.

I want him to be in his sweet spot.  God knows where he should be.  And I'm digging in- praying that He will lead my husband to the career that will put him smack dab IN THE MIDDLE of the sweetest spot he could be in.