Wednesday, May 11, 2016

No longer


A 3 year process that brought me to No Longer
Over 5 years of hell that lead us to the ultimate No More.

The divorce has been final for a year.
One year.
One year of No Longer.

Even then, on the final day,  it wasn't over.  We loved each other so much, that in spite of the hell, in spite of the long process, in spite of the finalization, we still tried again.
And again.
And again....we tried.

When The Lord God in Heaven orchestrates a matrimony between 2 of His beloved children, walking away is not an easy task.

I'm still experiencing the ripping apart pain that comes from No Longer.
I still have a longing in my heart that can't quite seem to detatch from the dream of what was meant to be  Forever.