Once upon a time, back in the day, a little old lady made up the saying "Well that just galls me."
What. Does. THAT. Mean???? I just assumed it meant that it bothered you. Annoyed you? Frustrated you?
And now, present day, this not-so-little, not-so-old-lady, got a good grip on what being "galled" actually means.
A few months ago, I was experiencing the most intense stress in my adult life. Had I been placed in just "ONE" of the stress scenarios that I was experiencing, I could have deal with it (better). But? I was presented in dealing with stress from all directions of my personal life. Perhaps if, during that stress, I had seen that there was a hope to a decent conclusion, I wouldn't have handled it all so poorly. But- I had no certainty of a pleasant outcome.
Mentally, I shut down in the worst possible way. Physically, my body couldn't handle my mental state. Coupled with a poor diet, intense stress, and little sleep; my body responded and my gall bladder took the hit. Long story short; after a week of throwing up, diarreah, and dehydration, I went to a doctor. MD. No help. I needed blood work and extensive testing to determine my issue. No insurance. So? Not gonna happen. I researched my issue, and decided I was going to make an effort in going "the natural" way.
Off to Miss Acupuncturist I went. A great friend recommended Flourish Acupuncture, and I took the plunge into Chinese Medicine via Tamara Clarke's expertise.
I can't say that I wasn't skeptical. I CAN say, however, that I was willing and open to give it a try- which in effect- made all the difference. Tamara sat down with me and asked me many questions about my health history, eating habits, and the all important , how much current stress am I experiencing. In the process of the acupuncture, she determined that the gall bladder was indeed the issue.
I left the office feeling so much better- an hour in a serene atmosphere was only part of the improvement. I whole heartedly believe that something to do with the acupuncture allowed my body to re-energize. Tamara educated me on the foods I needed to avoid (mega important!) and "prescribed" two different supplements based on the Chinese Medicine methods she has been trained in. And- I was asked to find a yoga class to take, and practice deep breathing to help deal with stress.
I felt better. So. Much. Better!
Today- I'm kicking myself in the BUTT for forgetting everything that lead up to my gall bladder issue before. I have less stress, absolutely, but I've been dwelling on a very specific stress- losing sleep, self medicating with 'food', and not taking my supplements.
Stupid. Stupid. STUPID!
I'm right back where I started before I 'got better'. Tired, to the point of ridiculous. In pain, but not like before- because I'm not puking.
In addition- I have a toothache. Apparently, there's a cavity up in one of my teeth. Side note to my ailment, I have something called Enamel Dysplasia. SO? When I get a cavity- it moves into the root faster than it would normally. When I have a toothache, it's likely that I need a root canal. Suckville.
And- I have an ear ache. It could be due to the toothache- the pressure from my jaw could effect the ear drum. Whatever.
All in all- not having insurance, dental or medical- means that, for the most part, I have to suffer. I have to endure the tooth pain until I can make my way to a big-fat dental bill. And seeing an M.D. to help alleviate the pain and discomfort associated with this STINKIN' gall bladder problem; eh- it's unreasonable. I know that I'll have to hit the E.R. if I get a fever, and that doesn't help me any at all- because STRESS flairs up a gall bladder- and I am a little "flipped out" at the idea of a few thousand dollars for medical attention that could lead to surgery.
So, ya. It galls me! I'm galled. I'm stressed about the ever-important decision concerning how I will choose to educate my children. Homeschool or not?
I'm stressed about finances- the need for a new car, and a bigger house- and dental care. It 'galls' me that I have to suffer through pain and discomfort as WELL as care for my 3 little-bits-of-joy because we don't have family that can take on the care of our girls during the day.
Not anywhere NEAR the stress that I had to deal with a few months ago; but stress none the less.
I'm ready for things to 'be normal', whatever 'normal' looks like. It's annoying to have 'big issues' present themselves into our life so consistently.
Not a fan of being 'galled'.
10 months ago