The time that goes by without an interruption, or an explosion of
"MomEEEE!!!!".
It doesn't matter what I'm doing.
Cooking.
Cleaning.
Folding laundry.
Writing.
Reading.
Taking a bath.
Interruption.
"She took my doll."
"She won't get out of my room."
"She hit me."
"She... They... But can I... Why won't you... Why NOT?!?"
At the end of my rope I grasp, losing my sanity. I can't do this Mommy thing!! I can't be patient when I need to be. I can't use calm, yet assertive words to get my point across!!! I can't have a thought long enough to keep it as my own before it is robbed from me!!!
And just when I think I've had more than I can handle, one of them comes to me and says- out of the blue, in the midst of my chaos,
"I love you!! You're the BEST mommy in the world!!!"
And it all disappears. The frustration melts away, and I am suddenly refreshed with more will, and more strength to live up to what they believe to be true.
I'm a good mommy??
No.
I'm the BEST mommy!!
